no wonder i feel soiled at the end of workdays.这句话是什么意思

We make them stars, but then their reputation makes us feel unimportant，and we truly feel better about ourselves when they die. I am part of this whole process. No wonder I feel soiled at the end of workday.
soil作动词是
vt. 弄脏，污辱; 给…上粪（施肥）; 被弄脏，变脏; 用青草饲料喂养（牲口）;
vi. 变脏、受污染或玷污的; 变脏;
意思是明星是众人创造的，而这些人成为名星之后又看不起大众。而我也是为起推波助澜作用的。所以说

最后一句话的意思是，怪不得，我在每天的工作之后觉得变脏（受到污辱）。
个人理解，供参考。